As 2018 comes to a end I think back on all that I have experienced, accomplished, learned, and also failed. This year was a true journey of self discovery. Right after having my second son, Charlie, I really questioned if I could juggle it all. I became overwhelmed, but extremely thankful all at the same time. My emotions were scattered as I was worried I couldn’t mange my family life and a business. Of course with much prayer and so much support from my husband I made it through. This season has been a hard one. I still am learning to manage my time between two babies, keep my business rolling, and also keep laundry and house work under control (this truly is last on my list. I hate laundry.)
This morning I was laying in bed looking at Charlie sleeping and just reflecting on this year trying to not give myself the mom guilt by how much I’ve missed on photographing him this season because I’ve been so busy with work. I was reminded of how little I get behind the camera with them. Which is so silly because that truly is my heart. My passion is to capture families exactly as they are. Sure, I know every one of my families loves dressing in their finest clothes and all he colors and patterns coordinate perfectly. You brush your child’s hair for picture day even though they had yogurt stuck in it for two days prior to that. I get it. Trust me I do. I want nice photos of us too. But I also want the ones that one day my kids will look back and get sense of comfort and love in their soul because it reminds them of their childhood. They don’t remember the yogurt that was stuck in their hair for two days. They remember how mom always bought their favorite yogurt for a snack. They remember that even though they didn’t match you let them pick out their favorite pjs. They remember snuggling in bed first thing in the morning and watching a movie just because we could.
I got emotional thinking how I want my kids to have photos of me doing those things with them. Even if my hair hasn’t been washed in two days and I look like a mess. I want them to have that forever. I might literally suck at putting together their baby books, but they will have their memories in photos. And it will be REAL, RAW, and AUTHENTIC. That’s not just my goal for my kids, friends. It’s for yours too. Your sessions are not for your Facebook friends. They are not to make your family look perfect. They are to make you look exactly like you are. Even if you are a mess like me. I love the mess. I love the craziness. I love the REAL you. I want your kids to look back on the photos I take for you and remember exactly what they remember as their childhood. Not the fake smiles dressed in your sundays best. I want you to look back and remember the love and emotions. I want them to look back and remember the smell of their home and how much they loved being the age they are in those photos. That’s my true goal for your family photos, friends. I am so excited for 2019 and to see what God has in store!